seen & unseen
2 years ago Motherhood was made concealed intangible supernatural 2 years ago I encountered what only mothers can experience the agonizing loss occurred in my own body a death passed through me 2 years ago my motherhood became unnoticed to the world around me my loss could only be revealed by explicitly stating it it was not observed nor felt subsequently 2 years ago I believed motherhood was robbed from me given and taken away abruptly as if motherhood was a transactional identity but today I know the pain, the loss, & the memories I hold can only be held by a mother today I remember the prayer I offered after the pregnancy test: one of gratitude & fear I remember the joy of telling your dad we were expecting I remember dreaming of names & nursery colors I remember planning budgets & timelines around your due date I remember being brought to tears the first moment I realized my sisters would become aunts, my parents grandparents I remember being held by your father t
